just let her sleep.

I love this.

Holding a sleeping child is like nothing else.

To me it is like a piece of heaven- in the moment.

It is simple. It is about love.

I will miss this when I go back to Logan.

Today as been lovely.

Not only did I get to rock my little Addi to sleep, but today I slept in. . . In my mind perhaps a bit too much, but I feel good now- my body must have needed it I guess.  I finished my book.  I started reading The Hunger Games on Wednesday and despite many pleasant interruptions I finally finished it.  I highly recommend it.  It was beautiful outside.  I love the first hiccups of spring!  Last but not least tonight, or tomorrow morning we move the clocks forward. . . and even though I will loose one hour of sleep (I made up for it today) I love when it is brighter later!  

Dear Break of Spring. Don't leave me.

People keep asking me if I have done anything fun for Spring Break. . . 

AND I tell them

"I am doing exactly what I wanted to be doing."

I came home for Spring Break.

All I wanted to do was to spend time with my family.

I knew that home would be hectic and that everyone's lives would still be going 100 mph, but that is home to me and I love it.

I have had quite the time thus far during my break to celebrate Spring.

• The weather is amazing! (I went running in shorts and a t-shirt today, not to mention I sweated)
• Lunch with two of my favorite people, Mama and Grandma (picture above)
• Watched my nieces dance
• Took pictures 
• Ran everyday thus far
• Went on a date with Hossy (last one before his mission!)
• Started reading Hunger Games
• Got my hair done
• Watched Shay play softball
• Ate delicious food
• Met up with old friends
• Got a canker from eating Cadberry Eggs (so worth it!)
• Slept in my AMAZING bed
• Got paid
• Pondered by a fire
• Slept in (sorta)
• Blogged multiple times
• Finished some overdue homework
• Had a splendid time as of Thursday night!

What else could there be to come?

sick?

I am sick and it is all my fault.
I am physically sick and I have brought it on myself. . .  I didn't catch a "bug" from anyone, nor do I have a disease that can be spread, but I'm definitely sick. . . and it isn't pleasant.
How, you may ask or Why?
Well I get what some may call anxiety- when I'm nervous, anxious, excited, stressed, or overwhelmed my body becomes ill.  (To clarify:  I am not a wimp! I hardly ever let people know my emotions let alone see them and so when I am not feeling well I pretend that everything is okay- "I'm bullet proof".)
To answer the "why" part of the question, well, there is a lot that is going to be all new to me soon, my life as I know it is going to flip and I will be living in a whole new world.  I can't believe I am that old-
There is the fact of going to college in the land of far far away, those I love are coming and going, time . . . is well passing and I catch myself wasting it all the time (I may or may not consider blogging as a waste o time. .  .)

Now for the symptoms of my sickness:
I my face broke out- AND I NEVER BREAK OUT! what is the deal with my face?  I clean it and clean it and clean it some more, but there is no major difference- stupid acne!

I have had headaches

Running nose

The chills

Sick to my stomach (diarrhea)


Not to mention I have been extremely tired.

I bring this on myself.  I shouldn't try to plan things out and to demand perfection.  I should expect change and be open to new adventures, a new life, and new friends.  I should quit worrying about the "What's next" and just let everything pan itself out. . . well at least that is what my mother said I should do.