I am blogging even though I don't have the time really. . . O well, what is time anyway?
One week of classes and then finals week and I am home free!
I can't wait- I am ready to be done with school for a while.
This next part of my blog will be a bit journal-isk.
This last week has been a bit eye opening for me. If you are new or haven't picked up on this already I am very much a planner. I like knowing the who, what, when and wheres. This past week I was fixing my schedule to get caught up in the four year program for my major! (yeah me! I finally found a major!) While I was looking over that I came to the realization that next year at this time I will either be preparing my mission papers or i will be getting close to marriage. Well, atlas that is how I have always had it planned. This realization hit me like a kick ball right in the gut. The shock isn't really overwhelming, but there is defiantly some shock.
I have always wanted to go on a mission, and the desire to actually getting there is stronger now than it has been ever before. However, I know that my first calling in life is to become a wife and mother. . . taking marriage prep this last semester in institute might not have been the smartest idea. Now I evaluate every small little potential relationship, and I wish it would stop! Don't get me wrong I have loved the class, but I blame it (and all my engaged friends) for filling my mind with crazy fantasies (not in a bad way necessarily). But it has caused me confusion.
My dang planning-self just needs to stop. . .
I am interested to see how my readers, mainly my family, reacts to this post.
On a different note: I can't wait next semester! I have been called as Historian in my IWA (Institute Women's Association) Chapter and I am so excited to get started with that. As soon as I was called I could feel my heart swell with love for the girls in my chapter. Such a weird but powerful feeling.