Sunday, November 21, 2010
To my Bosty.
I miss your craziness! I miss you wanting me to spin you around and around just to have me stop and have you say "'gain Kels- one, two, three- 'gain!" I love your spunky little self and wish I could watch you grow up. I wish I could have celebrated your birthday with you and kissed your face repetitively just to hear you giggle and feel you squirm in my arms! I love you saucy!
The Holidays are killer- I wish I was home. I don't think I have been more homesick at school until this point. I just want to go home- my real home where my family is. I want to be around those who have known me my entire life and that love me unconditionally. I want to be by my family- and to enjoy all the simple moments that we share. I want to laugh at the dry jokes my dad tells, I want to rough-house this kids and to paint my mom's toe-nails. I want to cuddle up with my sister in her bed and talk about boys and how stupid they are. I want to have late night conversations with my grandma Rueleen who ALWAYS has the best advice. I want to help around the house. I want to be able to escape to my home and just to get away from school and life- but here school is life and no matter where I go I have to deal with my own problems. I have to figure things out on my own, and I have to grow up- all things I am not fond of.
I have ALWAYS been really close to my family. I would often skip out on hanging out with my friends just so I could spend that time with my family. I would give anything to be home right now. This last week I have wondered why I came to USU. I have asked myself over and over why I didn't choose a school closer to home, a school that I could have gone to for a very little cost. I would have known people. I could go home just to spend the afternoon and make it to class on time the next day.
I want to be home. I miss my family. I miss my kids. I miss my friends. I miss everything familiar about home.